I am experiencing another failure right now. I have this massive research paper about Edgar Allan Poe due tomorrow, and I have been working on it for about 7 hours today, along with continuous work throughout the past week. I have come up with many ideas, but I keep rejecting them all because I'm afraid that they're not good enough. I'm afraid that they're going to be wrong, and I am getting nowhere on this essay. I am so afraid of failing this assignment that I am doing nothing. I have accomplished almost nothing in the 7 hours that I have been working today. I am gridlocked. The question that I am left with is this: How do I overcome this fear?
I think that the only way to truly fail is to do nothing. My fear of failing itself is causing me to fail, since it is forcing me to do nothing. Therefore, I have figured that I have to just write something down. I have copious amounts of research and ideas that I have thought up but rejected. I have begun to realize that if something isn't perfect in my mind, I count it as a failure. Even my rough draft has to be perfect. I have set such high expectations for myself that I will never be able to fill my own shoes. I have written and erased and re-written this blog post numerous times already because I didn't think it was perfect. In an attempt to accept "good enough', I am going to post so I gont have the chance to rrase again.